To my Sarah!! I Love You

To My First Born Daughter

As I sit and remember the day you first came
How I worked on giving you just the right name,
Those tiny ten fingers and those precious ten toes,
I remember those eyes and that cute little nose.

So tiny, so helpless, so dependent on me
I promised then always by your side to be.
Feeding, helping, caring for each need you had
And loving you through the good days and bad.

First you were crawling, then you were toddling along.
Then began first noises, first words and first songs.
Your first day of school full of both fears and joys;
You loved learning and recess and cute little boys.

Next came the art projects and time for show and tell;
Singing in annual programs, ringing hand bells.
From learning your math facts to collecting gross bugs,
We laughed and we cried and we shared hundreds of hugs.

Elementary days have turned to Junior High years
And I still love to share in the laughter and tears.
Your scraped knees and bee stings have all faded away.
Now homework, laptops and young men fill up your days.

Yet this you should know, no matter how big you get:
“I love you very much, and please never forget–
Wherever you travel, wherever you may be
You will always, forever be a part of me.”
~lrc

Thank You For Your Time

To all my friends  THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME.

ONCE YOU READ THIS YOU WILL UNDERSTAND!

_____

A young man learns what’s most important in life from the
guy next door.

It had been some time since Jack had seen the old man.
College, girls, career, and life itself got in the way.. In fact, Jack moved
clear across the country in pursuit of his dreams.. There, in the rush of
his busy life, Jack had little time to think about the past and often no
time to spend with his wife and son. He was working on his future, and
nothing could stop him..

Over the phone, his mother told him, “Mr. Belser
died last night. The funeral is Wednesday..” Memories flashed through
his mind like an old newsreel as he sat quietly remembering his childhood
days.

“Jack, did you hear me?

“Oh, sorry, Mom. Yes, I heard you. It’s been so long
since I thought of him. I’m sorry, but I honestly thought he died years
ago,” Jack said.

“Well, he didn’t forget you. Every time I saw him
he’d ask how you were doing.. He’d reminisce about the many days you spent
over ‘his side of the fence’ as he put it,” Mom told him.

“I loved that old house he lived in,” Jack
said.

“You
know, Jack, after your father died, Mr. Belser stepped in to make sure you
had a man’s influence in your life,” she said.

“He’s the one who taught me carpentry,” he
said. “I wouldn’t be in this business if it weren’t for him. He spent
a lot of time teaching me things he thought were important…Mom, I’ll be
there for the funeral,” Jack said.

As busy as he was, he kept his word. Jack caught the next
flight to his hometown. Mr. Belser’s funeral was small and uneventful. He
had no children of his own, and most of his relatives had passed away.

The night before he had to return home, Jack and his Mom
stopped by to see the old house next door one more time .

Standing in the doorway, Jack paused for a moment. It was
like crossing over into another dimension, a leap through space and time.
The house was exactly as he remembered. Every step held memories. Every
picture, every piece of furniture….Jack stopped suddenly.

“What’s wrong, Jack?” his Mom asked

“The box is gone,” he said

“What box?” Mom asked.

“There was a small gold box that he kept locked on
top of his desk. I must have asked him a thousand times what was inside.
All he’d ever tell me was ‘the thing I value most,’ Jack said.

It was gone. Everything about the house was exactly how
Jack remembered it, except for the box. He figured someone from the Belser
family had taken it.

“Now I’ll never know what was so valuable to
him,” Jack said. “I better get some sleep. I have an early flight
home, Mom.”

It had been about two weeks since Mr. Belser died.
Returning home from work one day Jack discovered a note in his mailbox.
“Signature required on a package. No one at home. Please stop by the
main post office within the next three days,” the note read.

Early the next day Jack retrieved the package. The small
box was old and looked like it had been mailed a hundred years ago. The
handwriting was difficult to read, but the return address caught his
attention. “Mr. Harold Belser” it read.

Jack took the box out to his car and ripped open the
package. There inside was the gold box and an envelope.

Jack’s hands shook as he read the note inside. “Upon
my death, please forward this box and its contents to Jack Bennett.. It’s
the thing I valued most in my life.” A small key was taped to the
letter. His heart racing, as tears filling his eyes, Jack carefully
unlocked the box. There inside he found a beautiful gold pocket watch.

Running his fingers slowly over the finely etched casing,
he unlatched the cover.

Inside he found these words engraved:

“Jack, Thanks for your time! -Harold Belser.”

“The thing he valued most was…my time”

Jack held the watch for a few minutes, then called his
office and cleared his appointments for the next two days.

“Why?” Janet, his assistant asked.

“I need some time to spend with my son,” he
said.

“Oh, by the way, Janet, thanks for your time!”

“Life is not measured by the number of breaths we
take but by the moments that take our breath away.”

Think about this. You may not realize it, but it’s 100%
true.

Jacob

The other day we went to see my mother to get money for my children’s halloween costumes. When she gave the kids the money, she handed them an extra $20 and said it was for them to get something to eat at McDonalds.

Little did she care where we ate, as long as we ate!

After getting the costumes, I suggested we go to Ci Ci’s Pizza – Jacob hollars – “NO!!! Grandma said we had to go to McDonalds!” So we all laughed and yes, went to McDonalds!

Learning to heal

As I sit here, I am thinking about my grandfather! As most know – he killed himself on June 30th. While I know first hand the suffering he was going through and I am not mad at him for taking his life, I am sad for my family’s loss!
Even though my grandfather was suffering – he was smothering to death – we didn’t get to say good bye! I know he knew I loved him. I know he knew my children loved him – but how wonderful it would have been to say “I love you” one last time!
I miss him daily – when my son lost his first tooth – I cried because I couldn’t call my grandpa and tell him first! When my son is ill – it was my grandfather who would call five and six times a day to see how he was and if there was anything he could do.
My grandfather was a hard man to love, but love him we did!
I miss him terrible! I hurt for my son who loved him almost more than he loved me! I hurt for me, whose going to call me when it storms? Who is going to call and make sure we are okay? He did that ya know- daily!
I am sorry that he killed himself with my grandma and aunt in the house! I wish they didn’t have to witness that!
I will see him one day – when I get to heaven I will tell him I love him!
For now – I will have to learn to heal from the hurt, hurt that I have never felt before.

How do you pray?

This past Sunday, Cliff Lipscomb taught a Sunday School class that hit me hard! How do you pray? Do you just quick throw a one liner up to God? Are you on your knees and praying specifically? Are you praying for your want and needs or for those of others?

I found myself throwing up one liners to God and thinking whew-I did my praying for today! Shame on me! People have asked me to go before God on their behalf and I can’t spare enough time to do that?
I loved the Rolodex idea! I didn’t go buy a Rolodex, but I do have a notebook. I wrote out specific things I wanted to pray about and I carry it with me everywhere now and I add new prayer requests as they come up. I am ashamed that I haven’t been the prayer warrior others needed me to be, that I needed me to be, that my children needed me to be. Like my pastors wife said in one of her Sunday school lessons (yes, Patty, I do listen!) we need to be on praying ground with our God, we never know when an emergency will arise and we need Him to hear us!

To all of my friends who have asked me to pray for you, please forgive me for not going to God on your behalf more fervently than what I did!

Overrated

Moving is so overrated! The closing went without a problem! Many people warned me saying that we probably would have problems and wouldn’t be able to close – but! Praise the Lord! No problems!

What I have come to learn is that we have so much, well, junk that it is ridiculous! Today is the day for getting rid of everything that we do not absolutely HAVE to have! If it is a want and not a need (unless it is my kid’s wants) than out it goes! I have also learned that we need 2 more dressers, a love seat and sofa for the basement, more selves for the closets, shelves for the thousands of toys my children have, more book shelves for the books my husband has with no intention of reading and a new stove because the one we have cannot be hooked up to propane! UGH!

But, God is good! Robyn called and on her way from Climax she saw a sofa and love seat at a garage sale! Her mother (who is the QUEEN of garage sales) is heading that way and will stop and check it out for me! Now – for the rest of my list!!

We are Moving!!!

Wow, finally! We are moving this weekend. Even though I am not ready, only half of our things are packed! Thats okay, God has provided many friends and family members who will be helping us! God is good!

Buying a house?

Who would have thought that buying a house would be so frustrating? From the beginning, it has been one problem after another! From the new HVCC law which came into effect May 1st. When did we sign the original papers? May 1st! Then the PMI gave us problems and is STILL giving me grief! We are finally on the down hill slide, but we are still waiting. Oh how I hate to wait! We should have been in the house 2 weeks ago, but we are not!

Through it all, I have learned that things do not happen in my timing, but Gods!